A Person Unknown

Today marked my second due date and I don’t have many words. My emotions are blurry and my thoughts are scattered.

I have moments of peace, and moments of gripping fear, side by side. I feel alone, I feel supported, I feel hopeful, I feel abandoned.

This journey, this “adventure” is one I feel like I will be on for the rest of my life but I pray, I hope that it wont weigh me down as it does in these moments.

May it one day be my strength, may it one day be my honour to have journeyed with so many women who have gone before me and the many who will come after me.

A friend passed on a poem she wrote after her miscarriage and it captured my emotion beautifully and so I asked if I could share. Please feel free to share with the many women who are on this journey with me.

“A life unlived,
a smile ungived,
a person unknown,
a child- never grown
You were loved right away,
Right from the first day,
Though my eyes have yet to grace,
Your beautiful face
I imagine your cheeks,
and your tiny little feet,
Your sweet impish smile,
my wonderful little child
I’m sad you couldn’t stay,
You had to go away,
Our time was so brief,
and I’m feeling such grief
I would love to have held you,
I would love to have smelled you,
But it’s not up to me,
And I know that you can see
That, I’ll love you forever,
I’ll forget you never,
I’ll see you again,
but I’ll miss you until then”